I need opinions

[Brutus]

Hello. Basically i'm a young bloke who wants to make a game for fun bc low level autism (jk). However i have zero idea what language i should use. The game would be 2d with pixel graphics (think old FF games). Do i need to make an engine? What programming language should i use? Will i have a will to live at the end? I'm planning on taking my sweet-ass-time so no rush there, also i'll post the crap i make on GitHub so you can all laugh at me. So basically, do i need to make a game engine (i kinda want to bc it sounds fun), what language do i use, will i want to live after i commit to this horrendous idea? Any and all answers are appreciated (even the joke ones)